Happy Mother's Day

Today's my first Mother's Day as a mother!

How are we celebrating it? Ermmm.... we are not having any celebrations, only went out for dinner at Spaggedies last night. But it's just like any other dinner out.

Do I feel special? Ermm... I dont feel anything different or special. It's just like any other Sunday, playing with Kaelyn, going to Supermarket, checking emails etc.

It's just a day to remind myself that I am a mother of a 9 month old already (as if I have ever forgotten), and to be proud of myself for giving birth to her and caring for her. I hope my 2nd Mother's Day will be more memorable in that she is able to call me 'Mama' and plant a real kiss on my cheek instead of trying to bite me as if I am one of her toys.

To my Mother and all mothers out there: Happy Mother's Day.

Thoughts...

I've been really busy for the past 3 weeks at work, and didnt have much time with Kaelyn. I think she only sees me for about 15 - 20 mins a day. And that also explains why Daddy has been the one updating the blogs. Good for you, Daddy.

I digress... Yes, and so every morning, it will be 'hi Kaelyn, good morning' and 'bye bye Kaelyn' within a span of 10 mins. And when I came home in the evenings at about 9+pm, she's already asleep. I can only look at her sleeping soundly in her cot. When she wakes up in the middle of the night hungry or just needing some comfort, I want to be there for her. But most of the time I am too tired to do that.

That's so sad... It's always at these times that I start thinking about not working and staying at home for her... but i know that it is not possible as we need the $$$$! sigh....

That's why I try to spend all my time with her during weekends - bathe her, feed her, prepare her food, play with her. Of course with some help from David and my helper.