Going back to work

Time really flies. I had thought that 5 months maternity leave would be a long time. But 4 months have passed in a flash, and I realised I have not cut my hair, gone to the dentist, exercised etc etc... So many things on my to do list are still undone. And I will be going back to work in 3 weeks time...

I have begun to dig up my work clothes, and realised that they still do not fit! My maternity clothes are too loose and big for me now. I am now neither her nor there. I either have to lose enough weight to fit into old clothes or buy new ones. I figured out the latter would be more practical. Ok, another item to add to my to-do list.

I am so not looking forward to going back to work. Not that I dont like the job. It's just that I have been away for so long, I cant imagine having to start all over again, having to warm up my engine and keeping up with what has happened during my absence. My accounting vocabulary has long been replaced by baby's vocabulary of 'milk-milk', 'pom pom', 'mickey mouse', 'peek-a-boo' etc; the accounting standards have been replaced by Book of ABCs, Red Riding Hood, Chicken Little; my mind is now filled with 'When's the baby's next feed', 'When's my next pumping session', 'Why's the baby screaming', 'Should I read Red Riding Hood or show her the ABC / 123 flash cards'... Gosh, I am so NOT ready for work!

I will also really really miss Kaelyn. I will miss giving her her daily morning bath, feeding her, playing with her, reading to her, bringing her down for walks in the playground, I will even miss her screams......

Kaelyn dear, will you miss Mama as much as Mama will miss you?

Our little ... terror?

When I first set up this blog when Kaelyn's still in my tummy, I named it 'Our little angel', hoping that our gal will be a sweet cutie pie. But it turns out that she is quite far from what I had hoped for. Now, David and I call her 'Little terror'. I agree that babies do have a right to cry as that is how they communicate. But to scream and shout at the top of her lungs when she is just tired, unhappy or hungry is not what I had in mind of a good little baby.

My parents suggested bringing baby out for a walk last Friday. I thought it was a good idea, so off we went to Vivo City. Everything started off fine but as soon as we had bought out lunch and were ready to tuck in, Kaelyn started making noise. Then it turned into a cry, and then she started screaming away. I think everyone in the Food Court heard and was looking at our direction as I frantically tried to calm her down. I carried and rocked her, put her in my sarong, sang to her, tried to feed her etc etc. Nothing works! I had no choice but to whisk her out of the Food Court amidst stares from people I passed by. She finally calmed down when we were out of the Food Court. I guess she didnt like that place and screaming was her only way of protesting. The rest of the day was spent either feeding her, calming her when she started her nonsense again, or worrying when she will start yelling again...

I really hope this wont happen when David and I bring her to Sentosa for 3D 2N stay at Rasa Sentosa.

Kaelyn, can you promise Papa and Mama you will be an angel at Sentosa?